Updated: Dec 9, 2020
A lot of things happened this year and one of them was that I finally made the jump to go full time on my art and illustration business and see where it would take me if i would focus 100% on it.
I still barely realise it myself to be honest, and probably would not have believed at all the beginning of the year.
I didn't planned to make the jump
Sure, I played around with the idea and I definitely spend a large amount of time drawing, commenting about it and ramping up my social media. website and Instagram.
Still It felt very far from being possible and this is a MASSIVE leap of faith.
So yes, this was somehow bubbling under the surface for quite a while and I was kind of trying to test wether that could work and kind of trying in an half baked way.
In the last couple of years, I was waiting for the confirmation that it would work financially whilst working on it one or two days a week. That is not quite enough time to build momentum, and to be frank, a fantasy that I could start such a venture without taking risks.
At the end of the day, I didn’t allow myself to really believe in me or dream big.
So what happened then?
Some people in my entourage really poked me out of my comfort zone on my beliefs systems, believing in me and pushing me as well as suggesting that I should go all out when it wasn’t even on my radar
After that initial "click", I took some time to work through my internal resistance and limiting beliefs and understand what was blocking me. I also went really deep within to understand why that was so important to me and what I wanted to achieve.
I watched a ton of motivational videos (I basically brainwashed myself, this is highly effective, I recommend!), read a lot about art and illustration business (and more videos, thank you Youtube).
I also realised that this path has been presented to me at different time in my life in different ways and that keeping on making excuses and ignoring it is not going to make it go away!
And as where focus goes energy flows... at some point i was again at the edge of the cliff f this decision to bet on myself and my art, and this time, wuhuuuu! I went for it!